Sorry mama

Sorry mama, it was not supposed to be this way... Sorry I left and went so far. Sorry that, though I may have been there for the big things, I have not been there for the little ones. The times you needed me to laugh with you, at the blink of an eye, at something only the two of us would understand, to put your head on my shoulder when you werehaving a bad day and no one else was around, to share your excitement at a new thing you learned, to tell you how pretty you looked one day, ask you why you looked tired the other, to pluck your eyebrows, fluff your hair, to share little joys and despairs, to spend time together, side by side, without the need to say a word. I miss you Mama. We are at a point in our lives where you need me as a friend and I need you as a friend, one that does not change depending on how the winds blow. And yet, here we are, many winds away. I miss you Mama. It was not supposed to be this way. It's just that life has other plans for us, a path written that we are summoned to follow. There must be wisdom behind this. Never questioning the wisdom. Accepting it, sometimes with joy, sometimes with tears... I miss you Mama. I love you Mama. Sorry, I wish it weren't this way.